I hope that some of you realize, I will not seriously try to off myself. it's not in my will. I could do it, but i couldn't leave that on my family. I've grown out of the experimental, over-hormonal, over-depressive state and think i have landed right on a dead spot. just like sauce flying from the pan only to hit the cool surface, inches away from the burning stove top that kept it alive.
right now i'm just so tired, i can barely function...but i have to try, to go to work. i can't sleep, bad dreams, and bad luck have kept me awake. the hour is coming up and i have nothing to wear, i'm 20 minutes behind yet i just sit here. gotta get up.
uggghhh... wish me luck
written on 2008-09-07@3:01 p.m.